Honey, I'm hooooooooome!!!

11:54pm (est time)
holy crap it's been a while. well, what's goin on? i am in canada and well, tomorrow's our last day. i wanna see my kitten, friends, school, internet and home and stuff, but i really wanna stay here...i mean i want to live here. i would wait till after high school. pending on where everyone lives, like my aunt niki sam and jen, and bobbi joe jojo madylin and becca, and just other family and friends. omg, bobbi joe and the kids (except madylin who's in Paris on a senior trip) came out today, and i thought jojo was hot last year, but more so this year...i mean he has just stretched out like he's a little thinner and a lot taller. and his eyes... idk what it is about them, but i just get captivated by them...they're all black and small and shiny...of course i  immediately look away, but they just tell so much, and he's so sweet. i remember when we were little, he almost  pushed me down his basement stairs...luckily mom convinced nan to close the basement door...but now he's so sweet and hot and great at soccer. nan of course put me right on the spot when she asked me to take jojo to the beach. we went and took becca with us so it was okay. he just went, like 'whatever' and it has always been awkward since his  terror days. well we went out and i tried to be funny, but it got old, so i went and asked them if they had anything to do, and jojo said that they had a soccer ball in thier van, so we went and got it and it looked just like one that i saw under papa's house earlier...so i went to see if it was still there just out of curiosity, and it was. so we went down there and jojo had the ball and me and becca tried to get it from him. i loved it. it was fun and we flirted a lot, and i did notice that i wasn't the only one flirting ;D then after that we went a little bit in the water, and then i started writing i luv jojo in my language except a 'lil different. then i drew a design which i have to write down (17 min later) okay i did it and colored it...it looks like a weird crab. anyway i got them started on drawing weird symbols, and jojo did some cool asian looking symbols. okay i hated him now i am seriously in love with him. so we got tired of that and came inside. we started talkin bout music and he told me  out this band that sounds cool, but in order to impress, i said that i knew them. so, i have no clue what he's talkin bout. i need to finish this tomorrow...tired (8 1/2 hrs. later) yeah, i shoulda tol him that i didn't know them so we could tlk bout em. well, i just had about fifteen dreams all strung together about him, which i tend to do after i like someone that much. i remember that in one of them my bunny was in a pool and about to get chopped up in this thing that chopps up debris if it floats towards it, so i jumped on it before it got close and i went under water and i hit the bottom. when i did, i tried to push up but i couldn't and then finally i did and i almost made it to the top and i hoped it was a dream, so when i was just about out of breath, i took a really deep breath, and i was right it was a dream, so i ended up waking up after that one and realizing how long it had been since i had breathed last. it was weird. anyway, then the rest i cant really remember because i was woken up...ugh. so all of that dreaming was down the drain. but i can tell they were all just fantasies bout jojo. so i didn't miss much except the fact that i wasn't the only one who felt something in my dream. man, i remember that it was really exciting, like something big was happenin. now we talk about my crush. mike. i know that it's so wrong, but i also used to have a crush on nick. now it's mike. but man is he hot! and really nice and sweet and just hot. and also 17. ya see, at least with jojo he's my age, even though he's a school year older than me...i need his information. like email, ph #, birthday, what CDs he doesn't have, the works...girlfriend? man idk how that would be. i mean just hypothetically if i lived here and stuff, if i went out with him...i mean our moms were best friends growing up and now their kids are goin out. i wonder how that would be. but that's all hypothetical because first of all, we don't live here and second he prolly doesn't fell that way bout me, but if i went to his school next year then i would so ask him out ;D okay, i gotta pee, be right back (29 min later) it doesn't take me that long to pee, but after i did, my uncle got here so i had to find sumptin to wear, and say hi to him shirly, josh, lindsay, and lemon head (nickname for the baby) who is actually lenon. so, where was i? tlkin bout jojo of course. well, there's nuttin else to say bout him other than the fact that i can't tell marli bout him because she's bi, in love with me and told me how she feels like she betrayed me when she had a crush on some girls at camp...so i can't tell her or else she'll have me feeling bad. well, i dont wanna leave...my uncle just got here, and it seems like we just got here too. i have had no time to see mike or jen...jen i have seen for about 47 minutes on this whole vacation...sad huh? because of work and school. and mike i see a lil more, but like last night he had to drop of kaylee, and he didn't come back, so he slept at his house which it's like no fair that he can do that because like i said we need to live here so i can just go back and forth at my will. and i can't wait till i can drive because well, i just hate the fact that i am the youngest cousin except for the babies. OH AND JOJO PLAYS GUITAR...well, so does mike, but that's different because well, idk. and i wont get to see nick this summer at all being as how he's going to college and stuff like that. it never hit me how old he was. and his older bro johnny i havn't seen in about 4 years maybe...prolly longer. and i remember that he was really hot too. and acording to mike, he's the best guitar player he's ever seen. becuase he played a song and mike was totally blown away and asked what song it was he said that he didn't have a name for it yet...that's amazing because he had just made it up. and jared plays guitar...i havn't thought about tony for a looooong time. i wonder how things are with my friends ya know? well, i dont wanna leave but i wanna go home. idk...well, i think that that's it for right now. i'll try to write more...i skipped all of seventh grade. the worst grade of my life btw.

       peace,
          Lindsay